Sorcerers Apprentice rn.

I need some prayers and good thoughts being sent my way, I found something that would replace Target. YAY!!!

Comment and I will:
a) Tell you why I friended you.
b) Associate you with something - fandom, a song, a color, a photo, etc.
c) Tell you something I like about you.
d) Tell you a memory I have of you.
e) Ask something I've always wanted to know about you.
f) Tell you my favorite user pic of yours.
g) In return, please post this in your journal

Dear Lord have mercy *headdesk* I just want to run screaming in front of a very large bus/truck/train.

Who wants a five year old? She's cute... really.

Theme: Nick Carter
Status: 100/100 Theme: Nick Carter
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Theme: Nick Carter
Status: 14/100
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*sets down their breakfast, chuckles watching them eat*

*heads back up the stairs, tucking a strand of wet hair behind my ear*

*sits down at the vanity, pulls a face at myself, giggling a little*

*opens up my journal*

Today has to be better. I don't know if I can make it if its not.

*sighs*

I feel so lucky though, even as bad as yesterday was, when I started to feel better, Nick did everything that he could think of to make me laugh and smile. Somehow, he always can.

Him holding me always helps too. Just having his arms wrapped around me, pulling me close to him. It just makes me feel so very safe and like nothing is wrong with the world. I love that when he holds me I feel so protected and at peace.

*shakes my head*

Yeah, I'm weird that way. Height wise I'm not that much shorter than he is. But he's big..big arms, big chest, big legs. *blushes* It just makes me feel very feminine. I feel like he just envelopes me. It is a very strange thing to me. But I love it.

*looks over what I just wrote, shakes my head*

Obviously, I am still feeling a little out of it this morning. Not making any damn sense to anyone other than myself. And that's ok.

*smiles to myself a little*

I love him so much, he makes me so happy. No matter what, I know that we are there for each other. To make sure that everything will be better than it was.

*closes my journal, starts to finish my makeup*

a truth:
a wish:
a fantasy:
a secret:
a compliment:
a love note:
a song:
a hint to who you are:

Just do me good. *smirks*

*fixes their breakfast, patting them on the head as they start to eat*

*heads upstairs to get in the shower*

*plops on the bed for a minute with my journal*

I had so much fun last night. Thank you Gwennie and Brian for having us all over. It was great to see everyone just relaxing and talking into the night. I had wanted to stay awake and listen more, but had gotten up really early yesterday, trying to get everything finished that I needed to.

*runs my hand back through my hair*

Still have stuff to do today before my RL plans this evening, I'm hoping that I don't have to be there all night long and that I can escape and at least come play a little. *chuckles* I have some things tomorrow on the mainland also, hopefully not as long as yesterday though.

I miss my baby.*pouts* He had wanted to do something just us yesterday, before the BBQ but my appointment ran longer than I thought, and that was going in two hours earlier than I had originally planned. *grumbles a little*

*runs my fingertips lightly over the bracelet that he gave me yesterday, smiling softly*

He spoils me, not sure what I did to deserve his love and time, but I am so glad that I he decided to take a chance on me. I love when he surprises me, like with breakfast yesterday morning...he doesn't cook..at all *chuckles softly* but he called his mom and had her walk him through making french toast, one of my favorites by the way. It's the little things that he does like that, that make me love him so much more than I ever thought was possible.

*grins at the girls as they come padding in the bedroom*

I need to get showered and try to face today...

*puts down my journal, hopping up to get ready*

I have to say, for someone like me that is NOT a big fan of Nsync,or boybands in general,  hearing that Lance Bass was going to be less than a mile from my house didn't really do anything for me. However, we all know that Kim shape adores Lance, so I called her and arranged for her to meet me at the grand opening that he was doing here.

I do have to say however, it was fun being there, we had Gwen and April shape on the cell phones and snapped a TON of pictures. He allowed the crowd to ask questions and he answered them. For those of you that I know care, they are thinking a new album sometime in 2005. He also did not have his eyebrow pierced anymore, but you could see that it was healing from where it had been.

Hell, we all know that I will say or do anything, so I asked for a hug...and got one for Kimshape  and I. *chuckles* Thought that she might pass out. But it was worth it.

He also was signing autographs and having his picture taken with the people that were there. He was very gracious and completely darling in person. I must say that I have a new found respect for him.

Hopefully, she will give you a few more details as I am starting to zone off here....

Nighty Night....

*steps back into RP*